The voice

‎"Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you." - Jesus Christ

As i was browsing fb, when the beautiful memories of lawschool re-emerged all my mind and made me feel how many things have i missed I see you

Pretty Christmas Bless

Why I din’t visit the Church at Anna nagar today

Why I dint even remember today it was Chrsitmas when I was passing by the church at Anna nagar

Why the gates of the Church at Egmore should be closed when Bro took me there at first or

Why Bro even decided to visit church and take me in particular along with him in the first place

Why it has to happen on the eve of Christmas, the day when the holy spirit enters in to world full of sin to cure and remove all within its strength

like the same why it all should happen in a matter of seconds, why just right in front of me

why bend the forehead backward right towards my face and then invite me to communion

why it should it be today after all these years through you I had to get the blessings of assurance in this way

and why you after taking me with you till I you blessed me upon and take me around just leave me back and just disappear or closed all my avenues to reach you further

is this your plot

I could have made my further usual moves to physically reach you but I felt you are very much there with me and have been guiding me every since I knew you

And still I haven’t lost faith in you and I hope and pray so that I don’t divert my attention from the path you have shown from this beautiful yet a little sad moment and unforgetful life.

You know I always love you Lord Jesus

While on the drive, I adjusted the windscreen a bit and just did the cross and din’t even stop to pray , let alone going inoto the church and attend the session.

Met Venktatesh sir in my room and we both decided to visit a church at his instance.

At first we went to a church which was located on the way to Egmore but it was closed so we decided to visit the santhom churh.

We chose a nice place and made ourselves comfort and as we began to pray and closed my eyes I could hear the song of love being played outside the church hall and it touched the deepest muscle in my heart and at the same time I saw her coming dressed up in white completely; as she approached us, I wanted to feel her close and so it happened. She came along with two of her friends and she occupied the place which was right in front of me and it was a perfect timing when she was reaching the place I, who was till then praying kneeling, assumed my initial mode, i.e. came back to my seat. Her head was now in the place where my hands were holding bible and from there if I had looked down I could have seen her hairline clearly and if I moved my head a little forward, her forehead too. I still refused to completely recline back. So I was sitting in a position leaning towards her and I should admit the shampoo she was too strict to give off the mild aroma I felt I could keeping breathing in forever.

I wanted to talk to this woman. So desparately but I am too nervous to even talk to her friends she had come along with. I liked this feeling nevertheless. This is a very rare kind of feeling and I felt I am gifted to realise I still do have the natural inclination to like a woman from my depth of my heart for I still do believe I can never fall in love with a woman for reasons which I am not interested in disclosing . With a little bit of courage and shying away my shyness and a good support from fren who has come with me, I decided to initiate the beautiful musings of words which were exchanged between us. At first she never responded to what I asked her and she just gave a look back at me and then at her friends [probably she expected her acknowledgment to speak I guess] and thankfully one of her friends started reciprocating. then there was a short break till I was nodded by my friend to continue it again. Then I broke the ice for the second time and this time the exchange of meaningless yet sensible words conversation lasted for quite sometime. I enjoyed each and every of her reaction or move. It was extremely cute. I felt two eyes weren’t enough to enjoy watching it. At the same time I was feeling nervous and afraid that this moment of my life might end too like a episode. As she left to attend communion, I thought she was leaving and I said ‘merry christmas’ for which she said ‘come attend communion’.

Oh that’s it1. Bro got super duber excited then I was. Infact I went still and I dint even know what to do and asked one of her friends where to attend communion and where she[ her] was calling me. Fortunately the friend of her assumed I was joking and asked me jovialy if was RC. I told yes without even realizing what that was too/ then she told me not to kid around and join the communion and all of them started walking towards a certain direction. I just followed them without know where was going

There I realized I was offered the blessing of holy spirit and I was two people behind her when I received that blessing of holy spirit and signaled her if she had received too and she said ‘yes’ and her friend told the same. Then after we came inside the church hall. The least I should have done was to ask what her name was but I dint nor where she live or where she study, forget what how would I contact her which is way beyond reach when I progressed at this speed.

I should have atleast spoke well with her friend who seemed like was as if she was interested in getting my phone number but stupidly I felt too rather not too serious to talk to her even.

Something was telling me I should not pursue and I should just take it as way shown to start a new life. Infact I found it weird my mobile showed it as out of balance due to some network problem thought there was sufficient balance which I came to know only the next day and not knowing this I could not even call my bro or else I could have atleast I could have taken my car and went along with her and located where she lives nor I felt like noting her car number

All these were pointed out as big drawback in me by Bro and he kept repeating it the whole night till we went to sleep and said how I ought not to have let a woman who did like me but let her down by not living up to her expectation by not taking up the chances she give

Anyway that night soon after she left we both we went to buy some candles and as the bell went ringing we can lighting the candles to the Holy LORD Jesus Christ, the Only Son.

Amen

Bitter to Sweet

It was my mistake to call up my office clerk this morning. How could I have expected today would be an another day where he often goes way out of his mind to annoy Juniors in office only to take out his anger for being regularly scoffed at by my seniors for reasons best known to him. That's is acceptable unless it doesn't assume beyond the test of limit.

One of main reasons for which I see he usually gets smashed is when the bundles go missing when that particular matter will be coming coming in the list on that day. However, I found to my own shock, he never cared to bring to the knowledge of senior about the bundles (of items which were alloted to other Juniors than I) that go missing normally and If I asked him for explanation for such behaviour; all he would do is to give back a nonchalant response.

Today, when he asked me for a specific bundly which I was assigned to take care of. I trusted this guy so I thougth the bundly may have kept it in the ocourt hall but i told him i would get it somehwo but this bastard instead of keepoing quiet panicked me by teling he was going to complain to sir or mammy. it was very cyunning and unexopected attitutde of him. I am omeone who always take care of bundle nevertleess this was the treatement i was meted out by this disloyal clerk. I had to run to the Court hall very early int he monring , i,.e areoud 9 and it was suhc a different experince to be in court this early thought I could not get the bundle. Anyway i went there only to confirm if at all i had kept the bundle in the court hall by any chance but i assured myu self i didnt leave any bundle as such

Admission before NPVJ

by the time excahnges of messaged between avinash and myselfe created more panic and lot of presumptions and fortunatley it ended when i talked with sir who was on the way and i explined everytihgh to him and he asked me to forget and go and take care of item 9 before NPVJ which was coming for admissin and i did and he came before it reached

Aruments in election cases and Citations

Tdoay sir was arguing before RSJ and it was so enticing , it was eletion case and sir needed a judment on defacto doctrine and i went and took it very immediatlty and he told about that very proudly to veeramani sir that how i was useful today when he came to our office this evening ( I am still not sure if in the case which i gave the defacto doctirne was merely discussed or was held !!)

Finally pinly anticapatory bail petiton was prepresented

ANd a bit of shout at the girl from souhth which is refereed in movie sami

After everything getting some ground nuts to Madam, Scorpio was waiting and as i got in Avainash preseed the accelaore as it flew back to office from COurt and only two of us bit of rock and pop and bits and pieces of law school. safe ride

and in office came the entreprenuer lawyer (SA 1009/11) and had a chat beyond our profession yet important to our life and then came back happily to wrtie this blog after seeing that funny poster.

Hi

The Judgment day

Today when I reached office to see the cause list to see my which ever cases that were posted for hearing in my allotments, I received twin shock. One was CMA 945 of 2008 which was posted for Judgment today and the other C.S. 855 of 2006 whcih had come for hearing after it was posted before Court for steps were not taken before Master though we had genuine reasons for the same.

CMA 945 of 2008

It was a case relating to motor vehicala Act and we represented repondents 1 and 2. The Tribunal had awarded a sum of more than 50, 000 even before 10 years and the Insurance company, the appellant had come against the order in appeal. I have had witnessed this case getting simply passed over and indefinite adjournemenet in the last 4 months and I believe this being the case for years for the parties in this case are so many and so the counsels who represent them, so it was practically difficlut for every lawyers to present together when the matter was called to make theri submissions. however the Judge asked the appellant counsel to make his submisison and after it was over, the matter was posted for respondents areguments. Sincer we represented the 1st and 2nd respondent, everytime the matter reached, i was asked by the Judge if i was ready but I would never give him an affirmative answer. instead i would alwyas get an agdjourent.

A day came when i lost my patience. i felt embarrased about myself for i thougth i was the casue for the case being prolonged and when i informed about the situatuion to my senior who in reponse simply told me via a sms "you argue its a good case". I could not believe it in my eyes that i received such a message, so when the matter reached on that day i immidiatley tool an adjournenmt amiss severe critisisim from the other side who blamed me one more time for proonging the case however this time i had serios intientin to prepare and come and argue next time. so i told the judge how i am goung to attack the very asha rani case which the opponent cousnel is relying on for theuir contention.

Showering Hope

Early Morning showers are so beautiful to watch through the bed room window still lying at the bed, especially when it comes coupled with the strong feel of sea breeze.

The day promised a cloudy climate. Having lost my mobile again two days ago, I had to use the wall-clock instead to ascertain the time I had lost my mobile which I use to . Since it’s very cloudy and I’d lost my mobile just a two days before, I dint exactly know the time. My mind was pre-occupied with so many other tensions which hardly gave me any leeway to share my emotions with it. I needed to leave in another 20 minutes to office. I have been considered in office as someone who was not keeping his time. I needed to rectify it for my ownshake

{The TIME was the essence of discussion between Singaram CHittapa and I when we met each other over a coffee on last Friday, i.e. ……… He asked me what was the difference between the three medalist in a Olympic. I answed him “microseconds”. Having appreciated my immediate and right answer, he further added how a microsecond has the power to decide the fate between a winner and loser, the latter may still be accorded with a silver or bronze medal for he is no less competent to the former but it was the microsecond that fetched the gold medalist the tag “Winner”. He cited his real life example of how he would have become atleast an Assistant manager in the …….if he had kept his time but because he dint, he had to lose that chance to people of less competence than him. I promised him I would always keep up my time and with that we had a gentle departure}

Last night when I was returning back from office, it was not the similar shower I enjoyed in the morning. It started with a drizzle and soon after transformed into heavy pouring. I could not get even Autorickshaw to take me to my room. I was stranded nearby a wall getting all drenched when I was thinking why am enduring this struggle which I need not have to go through only if my father was not callous about his financial life.

I cursed him(my father) and do hate him even now as much as I respect him for though it was because of his care, guidance and advice I could least pull till this higher in life, yet he had miserably failed in his capacity to provide me with certain means which could have helped me explore time and utilse it in a more meaningful way

Now I was cursing him, because I am lawyer, just as my father wished me to become, but with no rewards from his side for the same except that I know he is possibly the proudest person on earth for what I am at present. I don’t care how proud he is about me nor if there are million people with no food and most basic amenities (I mean I care that I would want to make difference in many ill fated lives but more than that I care about myself first), I have become a practicing lawyer now and I am ready to work hard to experiment what my limit is or if at all there is any such limit but I am not ready to suffer while I may struggle.

I can’t walk every day for more than half a kilo-meter (The New MLA Hostel, Omanthur Garden, Chennai) is located such that all short avenues connecting the same to highways were blocked expect twov very long routes which has is highly water-prone( meaning it would turn into lack if there is a heavy pouring for even just 10 mintues which is what I was facing now.

Its already 11 in the night, If I don’t start, then I may never be able to cross the lake-in-the-making (I used to climb up the wall next to the road when the whole gets submered in water posing a lake-like look, to walk across it). No surprise this issue was rised by an communist party legislative member in the recently concluded Tamil Nadu assembly for the lake posed major challenge anyone who needed to enter or leave the MLA Hostel campus. The worst situation is when AUtoricksahws men themselves refuse to drive us into the campus fearing the muddy waters may damage their vehicles. Everytime such lake appears, I had to indulge in tough bargaing with autorickshaws to save as much money as possible. The utlitmate cost is TIME

How I wished if I had a bike which every Tom Dick and Harry has one or a Car if possible. I need not have to worry about the rain, the distance and consequently the opportunistic autorickshaws. This is the sole reason I am angry with father. I am just 4 months in practice and I know it may be too early to go far a car but I need to be compensated. Besides, I have honest belief that I will need not suffer thereafter.

Father had promised me he would buy me a car by next week. In his words, a week can be defined as a period ranging from months to even year and next year and so on. But as of now I will be fine even if there is a bike, a simple and good one, to ensure I don’t need to run like a dog or sometimes even compromise on something essential only because I cannot reach there in time.

I dreamt, day and night, about driving a bike of my “own” (going by the old definition: The new definition would be “out of my earnings). My father blamed the bike accidents and other related things and my age and never realized about my longing for the little little dreams which I missed because of never having owned a bike during my school days.

When I was in college, the promise was still in force, awaiting to be enforced but had become futile since I passed out and now even started practicing. I knew I had purpose (not dream) to own a bike but was only acknowledged by father but could never able to take any steps to assist me.

Now I am lawyer and the least expect is not to suffer like a dog on the street when I am returining back from office.

All the above written things were running in my mind. But suddenly oafter I was completely drenched and realized ther was no point in running for shelter or wait for an Auto, I stopped rushing. I almost felt I was in back in my teenage days when we used to rush out of the hostel room to the terrace when the whole town would be doing otherwise. I started feeling myself a part of nature. I stopped to care what might happen to my new Bata shoe I bought just yesterday. I dint care if some new clothes and other perfume bottles I had been keeping in a bag gets drenched along with me, I started started extending my arms wide and feeling every drop of rain that touched my palms and whole hand. I loved it. I reached the room where I changed my clothes and poured out all the water in my shoe and went to bed. By this time, I had forgotton how angry I was with my father who after all is sole reason for the confidence, belief, and all the other postitive things I have.